5th of September 2016 12: 23 PM
Dear You,
I hope you are doing well in your life and I am also doing fine. It required a huge effort to jot down this bunch of words for you but you know how courageous I am. I am still the same and yes I still follow my own world because I do not fit in yours but I hope it’s fine. Today I was just going through some of my old pictures and there I saw you… ah… sweet, simple and elegant. At times we were so different but also similar in many ways. I don’t know why things didn’t work between us but I surely know that nothing was done on purpose. You always asked me why I have changed and most of the time I used to avoid this question. Let me tell you the reason. My answer was often termed as an excuse but the only thing I wanted was to give you the true feeling of love. When I entered your life I was very happy because I felt something which I always wanted to feel. You complained because you felt that I am not considering anything above you. All I wanted to say is that it’s been 23 years and I never felt so strong before. I know time never waits for anyone but you should know that loving someone doesn’t mean you are wasting your time. I have heard you say you feel for me and you what, more than that I have felt your feelings. Loving two people at the same time isn’t an injustice but leaving one is. At one moment you wanted him, then me and now again him. It was OK if you wanted to leave… I have lost you once… I can lose you again. My heart says to do the friendship with the pain you gave me but you know what, I won’t. Loving you happened by chance but continuing it was always by choice. You are beautiful and I am happy that I loved you. I don’t want to make you feel low by saying all the injustice happened to me because my love will never allow this. I read somewhere that lots of people can hurt you but very few are worthy of getting hurt for. I am lucky that you came in my life but at the very same time my bad luck that it lasted for a very less time. You know that I have a habit of talking to yours truly and last night I was doing the same. I asked him that why he is unfair to me every single time, I mean 12 years of separation and all you can give me is 1 year of mixed emotion days. I know how to talk but I don’t know how to make it remembered. The feeling of separation is so hard; you feel that your heart is ripped off and all the emotions are taken out. I don’t know whether I still feel for you or not but yes Love still exists somewhere deep down. I am writing this because I know that all I can do is write. Be fair to the person who is currently in your life, he seems good; he seems caring but whether he is good in case of love I don’t know but I know I was good because, for him, Love is mutual but for me… You know what it was for me.
Yours Accidentally Me
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