Dear Clay,
I am writing this letter to let you know that I can feel the exact emotional rush you are going through. Because I know what it’s to be the Second Guy. Unlike you, my love is alive but the common thing between us is that, we both can’t live the love story we wanted to.
I will share an incident with you. Love, trust, care these are big words in a world full of sorrow and pain. I never knew how one could ask for so many things apart from true love.
I just thought of not talking to her for some time or in other sense I thought of giving us some time but as the man say, how much far you want to go from something the universe pulls it closer. Sitting in a cafe, the Wi-Fi displays her name…. the playlist plays “we don’t talk anymore song”…. the waiter who comes to take the order has her name on the name plate…. As if it was meant to guide me and make me regret not talking to her anymore.
You know what is the toughest job in this world? Being friend with a person you were once in love with. Whoever said that it doesn’t matter or it’s easy, was either not in real love or had a very painful childhood. For a normal person like you and me, it’s not at all possible to continue easy because even if you want to, one will always be complaining for not being true. I mean, you have to choose someone else over me, you don’t talk to me in a way I want, you don’t want to share anything with me yet you want to have a relationship or friendship (as you insist) where I should understand you more than I know you.
Things were different when we were in a relationship because that time, I knew who were you but now I don’t. I knew what you like, what you don’t, what you desired for, what kind of a person you were but now you have changed. You expect the same kind of me but you don’t want to be one. Well somehow I thought I was able to get over her but with time I accepted the fact that I can move on but only partially. She is in my habits, she is in my writing, she is in every bit of me, so at once I can try to forget her but how can I forget myself.
So Clay Jensen, all I would like to say to you that sometimes it’s OK not to forget something. Sometimes it’s just OK to live with her thoughts because not every guy has Hannah’s Special connection but you. You may were not the first guy in her life but you were definitely the special one. Together we will go back to the night where we met the most beautiful thing of our life. Period.
Yours Rahat
Love is the most beautiful thing created – Rahat
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